Last year was a really strange year. I struggled more in the last year than ever before, and I am just glad that I had people around me to reach out to when I needed support.
I know I am not alone in feeling this way.
The pandemic is playing out in everyone's lives in different ways. We are all in unfamiliar territory. At times I have felt like the air was being sucked out of the tires making my journey slow and arduous. The constant change, and continued uncertainty has felt exhausting and anxiety producing.
In this uncertainty, I have found a new perspective on things, and bringing in the New Year was no exception.
Normally, I would make grandiose statements like ‘this will be the best year ever’, and plan for the incredible things I want to do, and achieve. I would put so much pressure on myself to make this year bigger, and better.
The pandemic has been humbling, and grounding in ways that I can only see now, looking back in the rear view mirror.
I am still making plans, and setting goals, because it doesn't make sense to leave it all to chance, or my latest whim.
The thing that feels different for me this time is my intention.
It might sound a little cliché, but I intend to live each day to the fullest. Treating each day like the most important day of the year.
The thing is we can make all the pans we want, but if we live in the constant state of trying and sometimes struggling to achieve we miss the most precious moments.
Not only that, but it’s an incredible pressure to make each year better, life has many twists and turns, and we simply don’t know what lies ahead. None of us do. All we can really do it live for this moment now, and appreciate it the journey, however bumpy the ride is at times.
As I reflected on my 2021, there were a few things that I decided were important for me to focus on as I move slowly and steadily into 2022.
Practice gratitude: Take time to soak in the things you are grateful for each day, especially on the really difficult days. This has been a practice that saved me many times this year. Share that sentiment of gratitude with other, whether you send a voice note, call or message, people need to hear how you make them feel.
Love with all your heart: My family know this about me, but I never end a call without saying ‘I love you’, I want the people I know to know it, I want them to know they are loved fully by me, even when we have an argument. Knowing you are loved is key to feeling safe and secure. So tell people what you mean to them.
Connect with the people you care about: Human connection is something we can’t survive without, and it can be a potent medicine in our healing, we have all experienced (in different levels) what it feels like to feel alone in this pandemic. So whenever you can, connect, take the time to really listen and be with the other person.
Forgive yourself and others. When we hold on to anger and resentment, it is a disservice to us, and a waste of our energy. You never truly know what is going on for another person, so even if you want to cut ties with the person, you can still forgive them and let them go fully. And as for forgiving ourselves, perhaps the hardest thing to do, this is an act of kindness, and will free you up to live your life fully, rather than beating yourself up.
You are stronger than you think: We all are. We have all gone through so much collectively and alone. Our struggles are our teachers, just like learning to ride a bike, we fall and get back up again that’s how we learn. We learn from the things that challenge us.
Live your truth: Be true to who you are, and stay in alignment with your values. Let this guide your way especially when you feel unsteady and uncertain. Knowing your values is key to living authentically, because only when you know your values can you chose the things that feel aligned and true for you.
Be vulnerable with people you trust: Let the people you trust really see you and lean into them when you need it. And reciprocate when then need you. Vulnerability is often seen as weak, but it takes enormous courage to truly be vulnerable with another soul.
Compassion is your friend: The practice of compassion is another that can be viewed as soft or a way of giving up. It’s not. It’s a skill to learn, as most of us aren’t taught to be kind to ourselves. And pushing harder, or doing more, pushing through feel like badges of honour. Compassion can also be fierce, we can vehemently stand up for what we need, this too is compassion.
Fill your own cup first: You can’t pour from an empty cup. Only when your well is full can you pour freely. We can’t help anyone if we are burnt out, exhausted, and irritable.
Play often: As adults we forget how important it is to play. We learn by playing, and our energy shifts when we play. We are never too old to play.
Do things that scare or challenge you: When we do the same things over and over we stagnate. When we do new things we create new neurological pathways, and it has been proven that we can learn until the day we die. Last year I started learning French, started rock climbing, learned a new design software and learned to code a little.